Far 音樂空間

Ok, my mind is quite clear today so I better write this down while I still have the feeling.

Been searching for something, but just didn’t quite get it. Since I have been in Taiwan for over a week now, my mind is clearer. I was searching for my freedom and my own space. Before my trip, I was slowly affected by the surrounding and was fighting over it. Got to a point where I felt numb and hopeless. The first couple days here, I was still emotionless. I couldn’t help it because my head needs time to release and my whole body was quite tensed. At that stage, no one could help me except for myself.

In the society today, we have been slowly affected by the materials around us. We have forgotten what the most important things in life are. Love, understand and care has been forgotten. Instead, we put pressure on each other without even realizing it. It wasn’t my work that made me stress; it was how people behave. I was born sensitive so I can’t help but notice every action and behaviour around me. The only way I can be myself is to find a place where I can refresh every once in a while.

Many still don't understand themselves and what they want in life so they assume problems are on other people. I was frustrated from the battle against my own mind. At this stage, I needed space and time to think over. Many don’t understand and like to intrude. We have to take responsibility for ourself; thus, we can't expect to get happiness from people. As we realize our imperfection, we won’t waste so much time trying to change others. Instead, use the time to change our own thinking. We choose our path, not what other think is right for us.

When I was in Kaohsiung, a taxi driver took us around town. He mentioned he only get to go home to see his wife and kids once a week. Most the time he just sleeps in his car waiting for customers. Yet, he still is sincere and lives happily day by day. Then it remind me of many people I've seen. Many ask for something over their limit, and unwilling to put effort. Then they admire others and try to prove themself.

For instance, I know someone that always puts attention on other's mistake. She wines and complains whenever she see a problem. Authority is so important to her; thus, it made her lost respect for others. She assume people are rude when they don't give her the attention she wanted. When one doesn't put themself in other's shoe, they will start to spread their negative behaviour on. This is where the chain begins. Yet, those who doesn't put themself in other's shoe are those that haven't had the kind of experience in their life which will make them understand and treasure. When we are not strong enough, we will get brain washed into believing that we are the one with the problem and become negative as well.

“Today’s society believes that simple life is unrealistic. It has been forgotten, but doesn’t mean it does not exist.”


The Taxi Driver